SIX YEARS AWAY FROM HOME , EVEN THE WALLS DISOWN ME NOW…….

SIX YEARS AWAY FROM HOME , EVEN THE WALLS DISOWN ME NOW…….

When I see myself today down the line at this point , a nostalgia creeps in and asks is that the same dream I am living which I used to see 6 years back , when I was an aspiring kid at my home in Delhi. Well its been 6 long years that I have left my home and just visited my native Delhi and my family as a guest.
First four years were engineering days, they were fun if we see from some perspective like making friends , having fun and all. But was all it meant to be only, no I went there to make it big , I went there to derive a path of a successful individual in whichever stream I may get into.

I entered the IT industry for pursuing my so called dreams( so called dreams they became only when the corporate reality was unleashed) after four years of so called BACHELOR OF ENGINEERING J . Its been two years in corporate and as I was an electronics and communication stream engineer, I derive an analogy of my journey with flip flops ….but it had more flops and I can't blame anybody for that instead I think destiny is making me strive for my peak, but dont know till when. Even at some moments I felt destiny came and whispered , but alas I was awake at that time.
But a looser must have kept these things in mind and could have gone in a shell of discomfort, I rather faced it with tenacity and made my own paths and still doing it, I had my vengeance many times but only for some occasions. Survive ,Survive and survive this is what the mantra I followed.

I didn't made it big enough , but I am a certain help for my parents and family now in monetary aspects but the irony is they want to be with me, not with my moneyL. And the constraints of my company has not let me do that yet, but still am not down and out, I will come up from this Black hole down south in INDIA and go back to my place , my family.
These SIX years have taught me a lot , have transformed a innocent Anshul to a wicked, mature and tougher one, have raised the threshold of my patience a lot. Have made me more self dependent and a definite helping hand to my father. It has giving me some great friends , it has given me love , affection and care from an angel. But six years are like an ERA I have spent out of home, it seems now even the walls of */1**27 street-3 , Subhash park Delhi have disowned me.

Well keeping this nostalgia apart , there is still a lot left in me I guess J, so I will go great guns in the future also and survive this EXILE , and one day I will definitely own my walls again on which I used to project my dreams in childhood assuming them as my paint book.

"KOSHISH" A POEM BY ME

koshish hai ek nek,
manzil me hai faansle anek,
jhujhna to aadat hai ab,
pakad li hai zidd si ek.


koshish hai ek nek,
jeeta to hai bandaa har ek,
magar aisa bhi kya jeena,
jisme na junoon na aasra

koshish hai ek nek,
aage badhne ki bimari hai ek,
rishtey bhul jaate hai jag ke hum
bhul jaate hai ki zindagi apni hai ek

koshish hai ek nek,
kuch karne ki koshish hai ek,
kuch paane ki koshish hai ek,
bus koshish ki koshish hai ek

BY ::: ANSHUL

three ways to live life

Many people learn this lesson the hard way, after it's too late. Honestly, being calm and letting everyone sort out their feelings is the best way sometime. It's childish to expect attention RIGHT then, just because you need it, and not show respect to the other person. It's hard, but if it's right, they'll come around.
What if the person's really stubborn, and they want to come to you, but don't know how? You try, and if they keep pushing, then walk away. Even if you can see through their words, sometimes, it's better to just leave.
So, what if you love someone so much, but they just don't love you anymore?
Honestly, you need to walk away. As hard as it might be, it's easier than trying to force someone to love you. Show respect for yourself as a person, as well as the other person involved. If they don't feel right with you, you can't make them. If it's meant to be, it will. If not, then neither of you are going to be happy. Calling them, messaging them, trying to force them to see things your way is not the mature way of dealing with the situation. It can be really tough if you'd imagined a future with them, thought they were the "one".... but if they don't feel the same, how can that be?




#2 Don't be scared of being alone, everyone has good qualities that someone will appreciate. Join a club, be with your friends... take up a new hobby, focus on self growth and what you need to be happy! So many people don't do this, but it's really important to leading to healthy life. Write music, listen to songs, paint, bike ride... find something that helps you heal.




#3:Sometimes people say hurtful things when they're angry, even when they don't really mean them. Some people can see through them, see where the anger comes from. Some people react to words right away, and are really hurt.
How does one dictionary define happy? From dictionary.com
1. Characterized by good luck; fortunate.
2. Enjoying, showing, or marked by pleasure, satisfaction, or joy.
3. Being especially well-adapted; felicitous: a happy turn of phrase.
4. Cheerful; willing: happy to help.
5.
a. Characterized by a spontaneous or obsessive inclination to use something. Often used in combination: trigger-happy.
b. Enthusiastic about or involved with to a disproportionate degree. Often used in combination: money-happy; clothes-
And to sum it all up.....what's the best way to live happy life? Find what you need to be happy. Not just from a person, but from yourself. Show respect, even if it hurts, it's better for everyone involved. Try to understand where people are coming from before reacting in anger. But this might not be what everyone needs to live a happy life. This is just one person's tale of growing up. Find yours, no matter how much it may hurt, how alone you might feel, how much you question your choices. There are many guides out there for finding personal happiness, such as Ehappy Life. If people follow what they know is right for them, how can they go wrong?

Stormy days will turn to sunny ones eventually!
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